Movies

Every time I think of this, it seems like such a small thing. I feel like… I shouldn't be thinking about it as much as I have been, but…

I wish I could talk to you about movies. I wish I didn't get lost the moment the topic comes up.

Twenty years ago… I would have been able to keep up. I knew what was showing, I knew about the blockbusters, the weird little cult classics… I mean, hell… I seriously considered a career in filmmaking, changing my major to the closest thing my college offered before moving out to LA to seek my fortune.

Then… I sacrificed that part of myself, for the sake of a relationship. The relationship.

I wouldn't change it, even if I could. The end result is my kids, and they are… perfect. Perfect.

And, anyways… she picked this house. If it weren't for her, I'd have never met you.

So… hearing you and your friends talk about your scary movie nights…

That was not a pang of jealousy I was expecting. Not just of him… of all of them. I couldn't understand why they got to have these amazing experiences with you, and I didn't… even if it was mostly long before I met you. I… I don't think I handled it well. Well, that night I was fine, but later…

I made a comment. It wasn't meant for your ears. Or anyone's. I think you heard it anyways. It wasn't a big deal. I haven't been worrying about it or anything, but… it did come from a part of me I don't like. I… I wish I hadn't.

But that's not the important bit. The important bit is that I can think of few things I would enjoy more than taking in some movies with you. Maybe work on my backlog… you know, if there's anything you missed, too… or loved enough to watch again. Or catch something new. Just…

Along with everything else, I just want to watch a movie with you. Something good? Something awful? Weird? Romantic? Funny? Doesn't even matter, I'm down with anything. Just the two of us? With the kids? Heck, with your friends? I'm down with that, too.

It's a small thing, sure… but I miss that part of me. I'm starting to miss it a lot. And I'd like to revive it. Revive it… with you.

So… what's showing? I've got a ton of catching up to do…